Across a Crowded Room

Gabriel d’Albon stood in the grand parlor at Heliotrope House, feeling very much out of his depth. His father had died suddenly several months past, and Gabriel only now felt like he was getting his feet under him. His estate was not a large one by any means, and he had spent most of his life preparing to take over the estate, but there had been much that the late Lord d’Albon had insisted on managing himself, so Gabriel still had much to learn when he suddenly taken over last winter. He felt fortunate every day for the Seneschel and other retainers who helped him day and night to keep everything running smoothly.

Now, he finally felt comfortable leaving western Siovale to venture to the City of Elua to visit his father’s—well, his—townhouse. The house was run by a more than competent staff who laughed at his anxiousness, insisting that they had not seen his father in years, and he need not worry about them. They welcomed Gabriel to the City, excited that the young lord had taken it upon himself to visit personally. 

There were extended family members in the City, some of whom Gabriel had met over the years, and some who Gabriel had not known existed! One of them was a fun loving distant cousin who insisted that Gabriel join him here at one of the twice monthly fêtes put on at Heliotrope House, high atop Mont Nuit. Gabriel had heard of the Court of Night Blooming Flowers and its skillful and glamorous Servants of Naamah, but it was nothing like he had expected. He had met one or two Servants of Naamah over the years, but they were folks passing through, and he never thought to engage one. It had felt too…formal. He instead found himself in the back fields with the occasional lover or friend. Nothing special, more curious fumblings than anything else. 

“So, cousin, have you spotted anyone you want to contract tonight?” Mateo, Gabriel’s cousin, sidled up, a drink in his hand. Mateo was dressed in the finery common to the City, and Gabriel felt shabby and unfashionable in his country clothes. Mateo had assured him that his outfit, the one he wore to the Midwinter celebration at the estate, was perfectly acceptable, but amongst the gowns and velvet vests, Gabriel’s woolen breeches and roughspun cotton shirt made him feel like a bumpkin.

Gabriel took the offered drink and shook his head. It was a fine wine, and it went down smooth. “It’s all very overwhelming, Mateo. I think I might retire to the townhouse,” he said quietly.

“What? No! We just got here!” Mateo gave him a serious look. “Gabriel, I know this is very different from Siovale. But I promise that this is a—” He searched for the right word. “—gentle House. The adepts here are trained in devotion. They are kind.”

Gabriel bobbed his head. He was a lord now, and weren’t lords supposed to do things like this? “Just..please don’t leave me to stand alone?”

Mateo bumped his shoulder and gave him a sympathetic smile. “Don’t worry, cousin. I’ll guard you.” He wiggled his eyebrows then sobered. “And besides, if this is too much, we can make go visit Balm House tomorrow and luxuriate in massages with scented oils.” Gabriel had heard of Balm House and its adepts trained in relaxation of the body.

Mateo had dragged him to this fête, insisting that it would be a good introduction to the Night Court. He had explained to Gabriel that Heliotrope adepts treated their patrons as true lovers and not merely playthings or guests at a performance of skills. Gabriel thought that sounded well and good, but the fête was louder and more crowded than he had expected. Guests of all ilk danced and chatted while they drank fine wine and ate fine food. Beautiful adepts—male and female—circled the room with serving platters. Gabriel considered asking to contract with one of them, but not a single one caught his interest.

He stood next to Mateo and scanned the room, trying to gather enough courage to leave the corner where he had stationed himself. From across the room, he caught a glimpse of a head of golden curls turning the corner. The young man turned, and for the briefest of moments, their eyes met. In that instant, the world disappeared, and time seemed to stand still. Gabriel lost himself in the depths of eyes the color of chestnuts in early summer. His throat went dry, and his heart hammered in his breast. A voice—perhaps that of Blessed Elua himself—whispered, Yours

Just as fast, the moment broke. The beautiful young man smiled shyly and ducked his head. Another man grabbed his arm and pulled him from the room. The world rushed back in on Gabriel. He heard music and chatter of guests, smelled the food and wine, and saw the delightful party in front of him.

“Gabriel, Gabriel?” Mateo shook his shoulder.

“Yes?” He said, his voice wobbly.

“Are you quite alright? You seemed to get lost there for a moment.”

Gabriel shook his head and smiled at Mateo. “Yes. Yes, I am quite alright.” He pointed toward the door where his fair haired angel had disappeared. “Did you see the two young men over there? They just raced out that door. Who are they?” He tried to keep his voice even.

Mateo shrugged. “Probably two adepts of the House. Likely sneaking in. Probably haven’t had their debut yet if they aren’t out here serving.” He gestured to the room and the adepts carrying trays of drinks and canapés. 

“How…how would I find out their names?”

Mateo gave him a curious look. “They haven’t had their debut yet. You cannot contract either of them. You understand that, right?”

Gabriel nodded, looking back across the room. “Yes, yes I know. I just…it’s just…Mateo, I must find out who one of those young men is. I think I have fallen in love.” He turned to his cousin, hoping that his gaze conveyed the seriousness of the situation.

Mateo gave him a searching gaze. Then his lips tilted up, and he broke out in uproarious laughter. He pounded Gabriel on the back. “Oh, cousin! This is your first foray into the Night Court! You cannot fall in love now!”

~

Adam nó Heliotrope and Alain nó Heliotrope were not supposed to be at the party. In fact, they—along with the other adepts who had yet to make their debuts—had been specifically instructed to stay in the novice wing that evening. Only adepts actively seeking patrons were permitted to attend and serve at the bimonthly fêtes. But Alain had insisted that no one would notice if they snuck in for just a moment. No one will see us if we peer around the pillar and look! Alain had said earlier. Just one minute, Adam! Don’t you want to see the grandeur! Please. Alain had a way of looking at Adam that made him agree to anything. It had been that way their entire lives. Sometimes they got away with things; sometimes they didn’t. 

And that was how Adam found himself hidden behind a pillar, gazing out at the magnificent scene before him. And it was magnificent. Lords and ladies in all their finery danced and mingled gaily, eating and drinking…Alain clutched Adam’s arm, whispering fiercely about how much he wanted to join in, but Adam held him back with a strong hand on Alain’s shoulder. They could not enter that room! 

Adam stood in that dark corner, thinking about the time when he would serve the patrons, and wondering when it would feel right. Heliotrope House had no rules about an adept’s age for debut. It was simply a matter of when one decided. Though Adam was approaching twenty, it still did not feel right. He could have gone to Mena at any point and asked to prepare for his debut; he would have felt fine. He was ready…in his mind, but he wanted to feel ready…in his heart. He wanted to feel called. And he hadn’t felt called. It was not right. Yet.

His eyes roved the scene, never settling on any one person. Finally, Alain decided he was finished ogling. “Alright, let’s go back,” he said plaintively. “I’ve seen it.”

“Was it everything you had hoped?” Adam asked drily.

Alain scoffed. “Not really. Maybe. I don’t know. But let’s get back before we are caught.”

They turned to leave, and Adam gave one last scan of the room and was suddenly struck, his feet stuck to the floor. His eyes caught on a man standing at the far corner of the room, almost hiding it seemed. He was tall and broad chested, with a chiseled jaw and short hair the color of deep mahogany and verdant eyes. His simple clothes spoke to a country life, not the usual city dweller.

Adam gasped. His heart clenched, and he felt a deep stirring in his belly. Something in this man drew him. Pulled at him. For the first time in his young life, he…wanted

He could not move. Could not speak. Could not think. Alain was pulling on his arm, saying something, but Adam could not hear for the rushing in his ears. 

The man’s eyes paused, meeting Adam’s, and the floor seemed to fall out from beneath him. He felt the gentle flapping of doves’ wings, and heard a distant whisper—ever so quiet—Yours. It seemed as though an eternity passed as they stared at each other.

Alain pinched him hard, and Adam broke from his reverie. He ducked his head and turned, Alain all but dragging him from the room. He let himself be pulled down the darkened hallway, his mind still a muddle, through hall after hall until they were back in their shared bedchamber. He swayed on his feet.

“Adam! Adam! What’s wrong?” Alain shook his friend’s shoulders and searched his face, voice high with fear.

Adam blinked and gave his friend a serene smile. “Nothing. Absolutely nothing is wrong, Alain.”

“Then why do you look drunk?”

“I…I need to speak to Mena.” He shook his head to clear his thoughts. “Alain, it’s time. I am ready.”

Alain looked baffled. “Ready? Ready for what?”

“I’m ready to make my debut.”

Where the Sun Sleeps – Part I

The Masquerade was a wonderful event, one that Mena enjoyed to the fullest in Olivier’s honor. It was what he would have wanted, nothing was of more value to him than the happiness of his family. That included the entirety of the House, so they all did their best to honor him. 

Once they returned home and slept off their revelry, the mood shifted. A pair of adepts gathered all the children into the playroom, closed the door, and spoke to them at great length about what had happened to Olivier. How they handled it, Mena did not know, she was busy with preparations. The novices swept every corner of the House, washed the floors, helped Cook, and covered all the art. The adepts were busy day and night for three days, changing curtains, covering mirrors, setting out the incense and candles, and making sure every member of the House had suitable mourning garments. Loir oversaw everything for the first two days, before she joined Mena at the Temple of Elua. 

The space reserved for death vigils was small without feeling claustrophobic. Loir had arrived just before sunset, as was the custom in Heliotrope. She slipped in, laying her coat and bag down on the couch that was along one wall, and knelt next to Mena, taking in her friend’s appearance. It was clear that she’d been crying, her eyes were red rimmed and a little swollen, and her hair was still partly in the arrangement she’d worn to the Masque. Has she slept? Loir asked herself, her brows furrowing as she reached for Mena’s hands. They were ice cold, her fingertips were even a little red, so Loir squeezed them gently.

“Come on, love,” she said quietly. “Why don’t you and Laurent nap while the Priestess and I do our part?”

Mena stared at her for a long moment, her eyes clearly showing her deep grief and soul-deep loneliness. Loir waited, her thumbs idly rubbing circles on the backs of her friend’s hands. Mena drew in a shuddering breath and said, “Yes. Yes, that’s what we should do next.”

An Acolyte of Elua gently touched Mena’s shoulder, drawing her attention and encouraging her to stand. “Please, follow me, Sister. Let us care for you so you can care for the dead.”

Loir smiled encouragingly as Mena and Laurent were led away before she stood and retrieved her bag. When his wife had died, Loir had spoken at length to Olivier about how death was handled in Jebe-Barkal. He had been fascinated and had asked her to carry out a few of the things she had mentioned when his time came. She laid out the contents of her bag on her side of his body and looked over at the Priestess who would be helping her prepare his body for entombment. The woman smiled gently, and Loir returned her smile, then turned and took her first good, long look at Olivier. The toll his sickness had taken on him was visible in the frailty left behind. She closed her eyes for a moment, speaking to Elua and the goddess of death who she’d grown up with as well, asking them to care for the man who helped raise her, who’d taken her in without question, who’d been the sun for everyone who knew him. Opening her eyes, she spoke to him. “Olivier Mathan nò Heliotrope, beloved of so many, guiding light of Heliotrope, I come to you humbly, as your graveminder. My hands will be the last that touch your body, may they convey to your spirit our love and respect. My hands will be the last ones to seal your tomb, may you be welcomed into the afterlife by all that have gone before you. My body will be the last one to leave your graveside vigil, may you flourish in Terre d’Ange Beyond in perfect love and health until we meet again.”

She took a deep breath, reaching to uncover him and start his preparations with hands that did not shake.

~

The week since Olivier’s death had passed as a blur for Mena. She felt like she was moving through her life under someone else’s control for the first four days, but now she was feeling more lucid. Mourning in Helitrope was a serious and sacred affair, so much so that the wake seemed to materialize over night. She stood on the back porch, watching the sun inch closer to the horizon. It was a moment of peace, something she hadn’t felt this whole week and knew would not come again until the funeral was completed. That was three days away though, first came the wake. She would receive mourners for the next three nights, from dusk to dawn. At dawn on the third day, his funeral would be held in their tradition. 

She sighed and headed inside towards the front parlor. The entire House was present, spilling through the public rooms, already speaking quietly among themselves. None of them had seen Olivier yet, they would when the parlor was opened. Mena stepped through them, giving and accepting sympathy as she went. Pausing at the parlor doors, she turned and said, “My House, my family, join me in remembering our departed Olivier as he wanted. Eat and drink freely, let merriment fill you if it comes.”

With that she opened the doors and stepped in. Olivier was laid in the middle of the room on a wooden table. He was dressed in what he’d selected: a pair of pants made by his late wife, a sweater knitted for him by Mena, and a shirt selected by Laurent. Where the flowers had been found, Mena did not know, but he was surrounded by gentle banks of all varieties of sun-following flowers, the bright yellow of sunflowers somehow existing with the purples of the ground covering heliotropes. He had a gentle smile on his face, and a wreath of flowers and grasses adorned his head. Loir stepped close to her, sliding her arm around Mena’s waist and leaning her head on her shoulder. Mena returned her gentle hug and said, “Vouloir, he looks splendid. You have made us all proud. Will you stay with me while the mourners come? For a while anyway.”

Loir nodded and gestured towards the door, “Of course, my friend. Here they come now.”

~

Petrea nó Cereus, Second of Cereus House entered the Heliotrope House quietly. She had made sure that she would be among the first to arrive, wanting to show both the respect of her position and the support to her friend. She took in the assembled adepts who murmured quietly amongst themselves, a somber air filling the hallways and public rooms. She scanned the space for Mena, but did not see her in the groups gathered there. Petrea made her way towards the parlor, where she knew the late Dowayne would be lying in state, offering gentle smiles and soft words of sympathy to those she passed. She could see the depth of sadness in everyone’s eyes. It was a far different atmosphere than the highly formal one of Gerault’s funeral. Olivier had so clearly been loved, and Petrea’s heart ached for the members of Heliotrope House. If only it could have been so with her passed Dowayne.

Moving into the front parlor, Petrea’s eyes landed on Mena, who stood near Olivier’s body, another woman—perhaps this was Loir?—leaning on her shoulder. Petrea approached silently, not wanting to interrupt. She stepped up to Olivier, so lovely in his vestments, so peaceful in death, his soul gone to True Terre d’Ange Beyond, his body surrounded by beautiful flowers. His body had been carefully prepared, and he looked…loved…was, again, the word that came to Petrea’s mind. This was a manifestation of Blessed Elua’s tenet. Heliotrope House had truly loved Olivier, and they showed that love for him in this way.

Raising her eyes from the bier, Petrea met Mena’s eyes and offered a small smile. She walked around to her friend and gave her the kiss of greeting. “Mena,” she said, taking her friend’s hands. “On behalf of Dowayne Aliksandria and all of Cereus House, please accept our deepest condolences on your loss.” She bit her lip and looked away from a brief moment, thinking carefully on her next words before continuing. “Aliks did so wish that she could come to pay respects personally upon the death of another Dowayne. She is, however, somewhat unwell, and we did not want to risk bringing any sickness to your House.” Petrea paused, then spoke again, her voice softer. “I also wanted to come see you myself. To visit you as, well, as a friend. To offer any support. Please know that I am here for you in this difficult time.”

Mena gently squeezed Petrea’s hands. “Thank you for coming, my friend. I hope Aliks feels better soon, being sick in the winter is miserable.”

She looked at the ceiling for a minute, inhaling deeply before she looked back at Petrea. “I wish that Gerault had allowed you out of your House, I am sure you would have loved Olivier, and I know he would have loved you. Please,” she said and gently squeezed Petrea’s hands again, “come and visit. We’d love to shower you with the love you deserve.”

Petrea’s smile wobbled slightly at the sentiment. She then turned to the younger woman standing with Mena. “You must be Loir. It is my pleasure to meet you. Mena speaks so highly of you, and I am pleased to finally have the chance to see you in person. I wish it could have been under different circumstances.”

Loir took Petrea’s hands in hers. “Petrea, it is wonderful to meet you as well. Thank you so much for coming and for your condolences, it means so much to me and to the House.”

Petrea glanced around the room and saw that there were other mourners, but none stood close enough to hear their conversation. She leaned in close, her voice barely above a whisper. “I assume you are now the Dowayne, Mena, and Loir—” She glanced at the other woman. “—I am guessing that you will be named Second. As Cereus House has a new Dowayne and Second, we are familiar with the changes and upheaval it can cause within a House.” Her lip raised in a wry look. “Although I suspect your change in leadership will be far smoother than ours. I, personally, and Cereus House in its position in the Night Court, will do whatever we can to help you with this transition. We are all here for you.”

Mena smiled gently, “Thank you for that. Luckily for us, Olivier was very sick for a very long time. I have been working as Dowayne privately for more than a year. I will, of course, come and call you for advice with the public aspect.”

Loir’s laugh was less restrained, “I will certainly come see you. We Seconds have to work together since we get to do the dirty work. Speaking of that—” She leaned in closer to Petrea. “—If I’d had any idea how terrible Gerault was behind closed doors, I would have come and sped his return to Elua for you.” She winked before stepping away to speak to another adept.

Petrea bit her lip to hold in her laugh at Loir’s candor, so appreciative of the support she knew she now had in this House. She gave Mena’s hands one last squeeze. “I will let you greet the rest of your guests. Please do call on me.” She stepped away and made her way through the crowd gathering around Olivier.

~

Adam nó Heliotrope sat in a corner on the grand staircase in the main foyer of the House, pressed against the wall next to his best friend, Alain. The two young men often found themselves in such a position—pressed together, hidden away. Olivier often found them where they shouldn’t be, spying on events they shouldn’t. But he would find them hiding no more. 

“What are you thinking, sweets?” Alain whispered, using their private nickname for each other. His arm was wrapped around Adam’s shoulders, and Adam’s wound around Alain’s waist. 

“I couldn’t pick out a particular thought. Everything is so jumbled up. This doesn’t feel real,” Adam murmured back. Olivier’s death felt impossible to Adam. Olivier had been Dowayne for Adam and Alain’s entire lives; they had known no other steering the steadfast ship of Heliotrope. Having never known his own father, Adam looked up to Olivier like one. How did a young man go on without his father? Adam had loved Olivier so fiercely. Tears welled in his eyes, and his throat tightened. He buried his face in Alain’s shoulder, clutching his waist as though his friend could hold him steady in the sea of grief.

Alain ran a hand through Adam’s hair and made soothing sounds. His own sadness was not as sharp, for he has come to the House not as a babe, but a young boy. “You know I will always take care of you, right?” Adam nodded, his tears staining Alain’s shirt. He kissed Adam’s head and gave his shoulder a squeeze. “Why don’t we go back to our rooms? I think you need some privacy to grieve appropriately.”

The two stood, almost as one. Alain put a hand on Adam’s back and guided him up the stairs and back to their quarters. They moved silently, as they always did, slipping away unnoticed. 

~

Niklos arrived in the big, glittery family coach. A pair of cousins arrived with him; they’d been patrons in Heliotrope one of the years he wasn’t in the City. Their mood was somber, and well it should be. Olivier had been well known and well loved in the City, and his loss was a difficult one. Upon their entrance, they were directed toward the parlor, and Niklos could already see a crowd gathering near the bier. He thought he spotted both Mena and Loir in that direction and looked to his cousins. “You don’t have to follow me, but I hope you will pay your respects to the new Dowayne and the House.” With a brief nod from both of them, Niklos turned and moved slowly towards Mena, murmuring his sympathies to any member of Heliotrope that he passed.

He recognised the stately woman speaking to Mena as the Dowayne of Dahlia House. She grasped the Heliotrope adept’s hands warmly, a kind and gentle smile on her face as she offered soft words of comfort and strength to her. No more than that, she did not take up much time, but Jocaste ever had a large heart, so she had come to offer what comfort she could. 

She nodded to Mena and the other Heliotrope at her side, before lifting her skirt and stepping back to free her for the next person seeking her time. 

He slipped up to Mena quietly, having nodded to Jocaste as he passed her. He was familiar enough with the Dowayne of Dahlia House, as she had helped facilitate his chess matches earlier in the year. He rested a hand on Mena’s upper arm and leaned in, whispering his condolences to her softly and promising her that he would be in touch soon. He thought to invite her to dinner away from the House, once things had settled once again.